Therapy of a sunbeam

My dog - was a cat in a previous life.

She seeks out the sunbeams, whereever they are at each time of day. Loves to lay in them.

Yesterday was so desperate to stay in the beam, she had to lay her head on the rung of the chair.

And was sleeping like that. Until the camera made her open one eye.

But sitting watching her made me realize.

She has the right idea.

Sometimes we have to seek out the sunbeams in our days. They don't just come to us. we need to go to them.

My body has been challenging me physically now for nearly three months...inside and out. My marriage has been challenging me for the last three months. Both of which have been challenging me mentally the last three months. My mood has been very dark.

So I took a cue from the dog, and laid in a sunbeam for awhile yesterday morning.

Just for a few minutes. A bit of vitamin D - warmth...it really felt good. Reminds me of God's love for me, which is so easy to forget some days when everything else seems crappy.

I have been "waiting to feel better" - whining about not feeling well, petrified of doing something to make it worse again and set me back, or the constant worry about what is causing it, what are we missing. Although some of it is just simple physical fatigue, a lot of it is mental fatigue too. I have been meeting the minimal required of me every day - still caring for the house and kids, but not much else.

So I made a promise to myself no matter how I was feeling I was going to try to seek out the sunbeam in the day, be it a real one, or just a happy spot in the day, and dwell in or on that instead of how I am feeling. Hopefully, it will make a difference. I have not been pleased with how I have been handling all of this.

I have promised myself to try harder. Lay in the sunbeams more often.

Be grateful for what I have instead of grouching about what I don't have.

A little vitamin G - gratitude.

:)