Half way

Half way through January - and I can honestly say - we have not done much of anything.
No pictures.
No snow.
No nothing.
Stress? Does that count?
Sad news? That doesn't count either.
So I haven't been in much of a frame of mind to dump anything here lately.
Favorite patient - going to die. Period. No cure. A 62 year old man who should be enjoying the retirement he has waited his life to have. A close family who will be lost with out him. Of course drags up a lot of feelings about my mom's passing. Not a good thing.
On top of that , I haven't been feeling well. Which drains me. I wish it was just acold that I knew there was an end to, but it isn't.
K's wonderful progress in therapy and at home, has still not translated to success in school. Frustrating to say the least. And honestly, I am starting to tire. I want so bad so say I don't care. To give up the fight. She does her homework. She takes notes. She participates in class. She does not slouch in her chair and stare at her shoes, shrug her shoulders and say Who cares....she should be doing better. So the phone calls to the counselor start again today. *sigh*

Today is however my darling's birthday! 42 years old. And he only acts like he's 50. K and I started a cake last night, and we are giving him a cute little valentine mini book. It is supposed to be for a class for valentine's day at the store, but it was perfect for his birthday.

I have also been throwing around a "hope" post - timely as ever, our sermon at church Sunday was on Hope. Much needed by me this week,let me tell you. So that has been floating around in my head.

So I shall return. If not today, tomorrow. To be cheerier, and hopefully much more uplifting than today. It helps to type things out here. I have never pretended and presented my "oh so perfect world" tra la la on my blog....I want to read back in a few years and laugh at my dispair over K, and tell myself what a silly girl I was....