As much as they won't admit it, I think they were both excited to be going back. Being back in the routine of school, with bed time and reading time has been nice this week. Not much homework yet, so I am sure when that starts things will not be so peacful. C. already told me this morning that he will be glad when it is friday because there is no school and he can sleep. They do both like to sleep!!
J. and I are still reeling from seeing those two pictures side by side yesterday. I think we just sat in front of the computer for like five minutes staring. It really doesn't dawn on you as a parent how much the kids have changed until you see pictures side by side. How much they are starting to look like. How much they are becoming their own people. How much they are starting to look like J. and I. Sometimes it is so hard to remember their toddlerhood. The chubby cheeks, the sweet giggles. Then other times it is so hard to forget. Often - I find myself saying - if I could do it again I would hug a bit more, or take time to remember that moment.
Our biggest job as parents , is raising our children to leave us. Raising them to be productive, healthy, and mature members of society - to go on a have children and families of their own.
Then- why is it so hard at times as a parent to watch that happen?
Thankfully, I am getting over my "blues" about the kids getting older, and have made a pact to make every day as joyful and enjoy it as it comes as much possible. We are blessed with every day we have with our children. There are families that no longer have the joy of seeing their child grow, or be a part of their family any longer. Or families that are painfully seperated from their children for one reason or another. Families who are not blessed with children at all. No - in is not humanly possible to walk around constantly in a complete state of thankfulness and joy. Life is frustrating. That is just a simple fact. But I am trying very hard to stop wishing the time away. Taking the time to be a part of each day, not just watching it, but being in it. We never know what may happen tomorrow. Will I regret tomorrow anything I did or said today? Maybe. Maybe not. But I can not think about it like that. I need to approach each day with new resolve, and take it as it comes. It is all any of us can do as parents. Do the best each day and go to bed thanking God for what we having, asking for more patience and wisdom for the next day. Thankfully - God doesn't give up on us. He is there to guide and advise if we allow it. I couldnt' do this alone.
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