Does anything say spring more than playing baseball in the backyard? Christopher can't wait to start playing this weekend. He has a new helmet and batting gloves. All set to go. I love to sit back and watch the kids play with Jim in the backyard. I enjoy getting involved too, but there are times I like to just sit back and watch. It gives me such a sense of place and peace to see them and listen to them laugh, or tease each other, encourage each other. This is what it is all about. Enjoying what time we have together. Playing. Laughing. So much of that gets lost in the daily hustle and bustle at times. We have to be here and there, and forget to take a moment and take it all in.
I also went around the house today and took some pictures for an album I am working on. I took this picture of the front porch and it dawned on me, how much I love pulling into the driveway. Ten years ago if you would have ever told me that where I would be happiest would be in my kitchen or in my garden toiling around, I would have laughed at you. What do you mean? I am going to be a big career woman.I wanna live in the city. Travel. Own the world. What changed and when I am not sure - except that I new immediately that I hated the city. One day, I just stopped fighting it and realized where I wanted to be was here. Home. Surrounded by the things that I love, spending time doing the things I enjoy and spending time with the three people that matter the most to me. And you know - that is ok. I believe this is where God wants me to be. And you know what? I couldn't be happier. Sometimes it is scary to be happy. Sort of like the feeling that if I dare to be happy, something has got to come along to change that. So for me, it is about trying to enjoy being happy. Makes no sense, but it's me! I never protest to be normal. Right now I just take each day as it comes, pausing to enjoy the moments, get through the "have to's" of life, and be happy.
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