If Oprah can.....

I figure if Oprah can do it, I can too.
Admit -t hat yes, I am still talking about my weight.
So much of what she said on her show yesterday and wrote in her article, I could have written.
Sad. I know.
It is frustrating. Totally. You would think with all the other things in my life that are out of my control, my weight could be one thing that I could control.
I lost 60 lbs nearly 5 years ago now. Kept it off for I think about 2 years, then slowly, then not so slowly it has crept back. I have lost the same 25 lbs I think 3 times over the last three years.

For me it is not a New Year's rsolution - it is a "getting back on track" I was losing last summer, quite nicely thank you - until I allowed myself to indulge on vacation, and then three days after we got back the car accident happened.
OK - add pain and inability to physically do much to the fact that I am an emotional stress eater, and you do not get a good combination.
It is not pretty.
I am finally feeling better and slowly starting to be braver about pushing myself a little and knowing how to deal with what discomfort I do get...so it is time.
Time to get back on the wagon.
So might as well do it with Oprah.
I am trying to decide to go back to Weight Watchers, or do it online, or just suck it up and know that I know what to do and do it on my own.
My problem is accountability. Apparently, being accountable to myself is not enough for me. I need to know that I paid someone good money to tell me what I weight each week to motivate me to stick to it.
There is an extensive history of heart disease in the men and women on my father's side of the family, and cancer on my mom's as well as high blood pressure. You think that would be enough motivation. I am a physical therapist for goodness sake who tells people to exercise every day! You think that would be enough motivation. It's not. I used to be SO active. I still can't sit but for some reason lately it isn't enough. You would think that the anxiety attack I nearly had at the thought of going to C's school before Christmas and being seen by some of the other mother's would be enough to motivate me.
So I am hoping this will motivate me...

I think I have posted it before..this is skinny me....at my ideal weight (well my comfortable weight. The weight that the charts tell me I should be makes me way too thin and impossible to maintain - discovered that 5 years ago - apparently I am "dense" - snicker)
I want to feel good again. Mentally and physically.
So - here goes.
I put it out there. In cyber space. Maybe in a few years when I go back over the posts, I will be celebrating the victory I started today - or maybe not. Can't think that far ahead. So for now it is just lunch to worry about, then dinner.....