They still make me laugh

Here lately - K has been coming up with some interesting thoughts....A few days ago in the car was -
K: "mom, some of my friends were saying today that they want to live forever"
Me: "That's interesting. What would you like to do"
K: "I'm not sure. On one hand it would be cool to live forever, but I think I would get bored. I would do everything there was to do, then be bored. So I don't think I want to live forever."
There ya have it! Philosophy of a 14 year old. I had to chuckle.
Heaven forbid if we endure the eternal torture of boredom.
This did launch us into a discussion on living forever if you had to "get old" - I would never want to live forever if I had to live it in the body of a 100 year old, or 200 year old person. But man, maybe if you tell me I could be 29 forever, I may take you up on that.
It also led to my being able to share that I am certain living forever in heaven will be much more interesting than living forever on Earth would be.

Then today she gave me an entire synopsis for doing a study
of how kids would react to new kids in school.
Going to different schools, acting different ways and observing
how people reacted differently to each *different* person.
She was dead serious too.
This is a kid they are telling me may never go to college.
Who loves math and science...loves the periodic table...
just hates english and social studies.
But she is designing sociology studies in her head. Just because.

She has been struggling with the fact that at 14 years old, she doesn't know what she wants to be when she grows up! The schools are pushing the kids to know going into high school what their plans are. She has been sick over it.One friend knows she is going to be a vet, one a lawyer, one an accountant.....
I told her it is ok not to know. Geesh, most grown adults still don't know what they want to be when they grow up!
Dear Lord J. came down here to work for a summer before going back home to go to college to be an accountant, and never went home! He did a full 360 that summer, THANK GOD! (now ask his mother to tell the story of his not telling her that he was not coming home until they came to pick him up! I tell him he still owes her for that one)

God has big plans for her. I think the struggles she has come through have been perhaps "training ground" - molding her in some way for her future.
Someone who knew her long ago, once said that to me they thought God had special plans for K, I think it was shortly after the orchestra concert where K gave her working bow to the violinist next to her who "forgot" to get her's checked, so that her friend could play, and K pretended. That is her heart.
She has always been at the end of the bell...never really fallen on the curve.
While God's plans may be radically different than the "new mom" dreams I once had for her, I have to trust that no matter what, she IS going to be ok.